Well it's been a week or so since I wrote last. And that's mostly because I'm feeling sort of lost on this road of my life. A week ago I was in Orange County, CA being offered the chance to take the territory that is open there. Now I'm at home with no idea where I'm going or for how long. They've canceled my reservation at the long term stay facility in Kansas City, told me not to drive my car out there and to sit tight and wait for instruction until early next week.
So here I am in Annapolis, MD (or close enough) awaiting direction and losing my way more and more everyday.
I've been out at the bar every night since Monday. That would be five nights out until at least 2 am, usually closer to 3-3:30. It's been really fun, truly, but I'm ready to get down to work. I'm ready to be serious about my life.
The last couple of weeks at home have been a whirlwind. I've been going going going without a break. I get out of the house everyday, I go out every night. But I have no structure.
I'm a person who is spontaneous but it a structured way. If I have a schedule, I feel more comfortable being spontaneous, but if I have no schedule I start feeling lost and spontaneity starts being draining.
Well that's it for now.
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