Momentary lapse in self confidence.

I'm already good enough. Better than good enough in fact.

The question is, who, if anyone, is smart enough to have figured that out?

It's not looking like anyone at the moment.

AH well.

I miss uncensored conversation.

Can I have it back, please?

Am I good enough, yet?

At Midway. I feel sick. I hate being here.

Movies

Going the Distance = the worst movie for me to watch. Ever. For so many reasons.

Ingrid Michaelson - "Maybe"

Maybe Lyrics

I don't wanna be the one to say, "Goodbye" but I will
I will
I will
I don't wanna sit on the pavement while you fly but I will
I will
Oh
Yes
I will

'Cause maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back
Oh
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back
You're gonna come back to me

I don't wanna be the first to let it go
Oh
But I know
I know
I know if you have the last hands that I want to hold
Then I know I've got to let them go

'Cause maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back
Oh
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back
You're gonna come back

I still feel you on the right side of the bed
And I still feel you in the blankets pulled over my head
And I'm gonna wash away
(I'm gonna wash away)
Oh
I'm gonna wash away everthing 'til you come home to me

Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back in the future
You're gonna come back
You're gonna come back

'Cause maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back
Oh
The only way to really know is to really let it go

Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
(You're gonna come back)
You're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
(You're gonna come back)
You're gonna come back around
Oh
The only way to really know is to really let it go
(Maybe in the future you're gonna come back)
(You're gonna come back around)
Maybe you're gonna come back
(You're gonna come back)
You're gonna come back
You're gonna come back to me

Mmm
You're gonna come back to me
You're gonna come back to me

"Light In Your Eyes" - Blessid Union of Souls

*my greatest fear*

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all

There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away

It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong

There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken it’s toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won’t say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken it’s toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won’t say goodbye anymore

I’ll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything’s alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that’s what you want me to do