The next day I somehow managed to put my middle sister in tears by telling her to take advantage of my mother's generosity when they went to K-Mart to "stock up," which basically means my mother (before any new year at college or moving into a new house at all) takes us to a grocery store and a store like K-Mart and buys us the essentials, like toilet paper, shampoo, deodorant, etc. By my saying that she should take advantage I SOMEHOW managed to come across as critical. I'm still not sure how I did it, but after we'd all calmed down I apologized and tried to explain that I had not meant to be critical at all, but more like understanding and commiserating. So that sucked.
This was after (by the way) my mother thought it was necessary to call me out on my acne. Now, people, I have been working my ass off to eat healthy to lose weight and those of you that see me on a day to day basis may not notice, but my acne has only gotten worse as I've eaten healthier and lost weight. So this is how she approached this.
We're sitting at the kitchen table, I'm eating cereal, she's reading the newspaper, and we're chatting about nothing in particular. All of a sudden she's leans back, pushes the newspaper away and crosses her arms over her chest and says, "Can you tell me why, if you've been eating healthy and improving your health, why does you face look so bad?" How does one react to such a question?? How can I first address the whole my-face-looks-bad-?? part only to turn around and express my frustration that it doesn't make anymore sense to me than it does to her?
So that sucked.
Anyway. So generally these little things kept happening. I put my middle sister in tears again, maybe even a couple more times, she made me cry, my mom yelled at me, told me I should apologize more than once to whoever I'D upset, but did I get apologized to? Oh hell no.
I hate to just sit here and complain, but the week didn't get good until I drove down to Virginia and saw Ms. Megan. We went out and had a blast, didn't get to bed until after 5 am, and then went shopping on Saturday. And then John and I talked for over an hour about various things. It was a great conversation and I'm really excited to go home.
I miss Arizona. And I cannot even tell you how AWESOME that is. I've never EVER lived somewhere that I missed when I was away because of the weather! It's so fricken humid here, I have felt stickier and hotter in the last week than I did in 109 degree weather in Phoenix. Also, I realized this weekend that I'm a Phoenician... which is just an AWESOME word! So it's totally cool that I am one. Hah!
Anyway, I had to rant, and reflect and let those people who I'm thinking about know that I'm thinking about them, though they may not know for like a month or so since no one checks this regularly since I don't WRITE regularly. I should set a daily alarm or something to make myself sit down and write. It's so cathartic.
Ok, 'night.
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Well just so you know I am addicted to blogging and I check yours everyday hoping there is something new. Monthly I find something so that is how I keep up with you these days.Hate that your visit home sucked but they generally will now that we are out on our own these days. So anytime you need to vent just blog and know that someone is reading it!
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